I've been wanting to write the post for a long time, but I wasn't sure how. I've been wondering why I haven't updated this blog in so long, but I wasn't sure why. But right now, this second, I feel enlightened, and I'm ready to close out this chapter of my life.
Why haven't I updated this blog?
Once I moved to New York, everything changed. I was back on track and starting a new life. In many ways, I was scared to look back, to remember what life was like before, because I didn't have time to face it. What if I liked my old life more than the new one? That was a fear I couldn't bare to endure.
I have come to realize that although just about everything in my life is different now, that's ok. What I'm still working on is trying not to compare then and now. It's really hard. All of this anxiety made the blog something I wanted to avoid. I was fairly happy in the now, and I thought deep inside that if I didn't think about the old life so much, I'd stay happy.
But now I know that what will make me truly happy is to put the whole thing to rest and bid farewell to those thoughts. I'm cherishing what happened back then, and enjoying what's happening now. I wish to thank everyone who helped make this change possible, most of all: Scott, Steph, Myshel, and Mark.
What happens now?
On April 1st I'll be moving to a new apartment in New York City with my friends Mark and Myshel. I've become very happy working at Squidoo, and I'm looking forward to the possibilities that lie ahead of us. I'm also preparing to launch a new blog (details will be posted here soon) to document my new life.